On to the next one.

Thank you highschool for being everything that you were. For changing me and forming me into the person I am today. Of course highschool isn't a being, so I'd like to thank everyone that was involved with my life these past four years. Like I said, to those whom I barely talk to anymore, thank you. Because without you, I don't know how I would live my life today.
I can't believe it's over, but it's time to face the reality that is university. It's something new, something pure. It's time to adapt to something you've never done before. Like highschool when you were in grade eight, only now make it mean something. Now's the time to identify yourself with society. It's time to make your life and work count.
Congrats to the Class of 2010! DO. IT. UP!

Relevant.

Need you but don't want you,

Want you but don't need you.

feelin' lonely nowadays.

In the near future..

Sunday
-Living Arts Show
Monday
-Register courses for September at OCADU
-Commencement
-Dinnah :)
Tuesday
-Go downtown to meet with my landlord to SIGN THE LEASE :)
Wednesday
-Leave for Quebec
(Btw, does anyone know what is going on with this Quebec trip? lol.)
July 4th or 5th
-Come back home.

...I think that'll be enough to keep my focus off of you.

" I don't know what your problem is.
It's the G20, there's nothing to be scared about."
YOU
ARE
AN
IDIOT.
EDIT: Talked to him. He confessed that he was an idiot for this.

I have a new external hard drive.
Step one to next year.
yay.

Leslie Feist.

" 'I'm sorry', two words
I always think of after you're gone,
When I realize I was acting all wrong.
'So selfish', two words that could describe
old actions of mine when patience is in short supply"

Angriest post of my life. I apologize.

I've made up my mind.
If I'm leaving high school behind, you're leaving with it.
This friendship isn't working...
...So I'm going to leave us as acquaintances.
It was a good time, but even time ends.
I haven't decided whether it was all worth it or not.
You don't make me feel like it was worth it.
So for now, I'll be naive about it.
It was fucking 2 years dipshit, you moved on in less than 2 weeks.
I'm so fucking tired of being sad while everyone's happy.
I thought I could change you for the better, and get you on track.
But go right back to the shit you did when I first knew you.
I'm not your mother anyways, so do what you do.
One less person to disappoint.
Congrats, be happy, be merry. Idgaf.
Don't call me when she's not around because if you didn't get it, I'm trying to forget you.
I'm not your bitch, so I'm not gonna take your bullshit.
If you want to play it that way,
I can easily pass it on to WHO EVER THE FUCK I WANT.
I can be insensitive and inconsiderate too.
We'll see how that works.
I'm SO done with crying over you.
It's the summer, I'm a fucking graduate, I'm going to the school of my dreams next year.
SO FUCK YOU.

When everything's meant to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

Far From Over.

This is it.
Take it in Carmel...
Relax and remember the good times and bad.
Those tests you failed, those friendships that ended, those teachers you didn't like, those courses that you hated...Leave them behind.
I talked to a friend today and explained to them that it didn't feel like summer and that it didn't feel like I ended this huge part of my youth...
and she said that it's not gonna hit anybody until we're lining up in royal blue with our caps on marching into the arena...
I'm so ready for the upcoming year, but not down to say goodbye to this one.
I can't thank everyone enough for everything they have taught me or experienced with me.
Time flew faster than I could even catch up.
There were a lot of days and nights where we spent thinking:
"what had JUST happened?"
and to be honest, what happened this year?
Taking it all in now, I can easily say that these were the best four years of my life so far, and that it was a time well spent.

Thanks and nothing but love for you Carmel.

I take that back.
Summer you're not looking THAT fine ;)

SUMMMMMMMMMMMMER.

YOU ARE LOOKING MIGHTY FINE RIGHT NOW.

that last post was made at 1:13.

loving all the 113 references in my current life :)

Rummaging for answers in the pages..

LAST EXAM OF HIGH SCHOOL!
Why not actually stay up and study?

A lot of 7's in the horizon.

6 days 'til graduation
17 days 'til I get my braces off
7o days 'til I move
77 days 'til school starts
1 exam 'til school ends

REGRET:

I should have taken art in high school...
Looking over my courses next year and their descriptions I am royally fucked.
Who knew there would be so much "LIFE" drawing involved?

k&u/app./comm./THINKING.

I started this year with you,
and ended it without you.

-to the friends whom I have lost touch with
-to the family I barely see anymore
-to the ones I used to see every weekend, and now rarely see at all
-to him.

I started this year without you,
and ended it with you.

-to the ones who I have been missing out on all my high school life
-to the ones I used to hate...lol.
-to the ones I who I lost, and gained back
-ocad.

Wtf is accounting anyways?

So done with exams.
I have my top 6 courses, so why break my ass over a 7th?

I apologize for the informality and ugliness of my last post.
It just had to be done :)

I AM DONE WITH CALCULUS

AND ANY OTHER MATH COURSE OUT THERE.

MY

LIFE

IS

GREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT !!!!!!

Open your eyes.

...or are you too high to even realize.

Sleep, eat, work, sleep, don't study, repeat.

This has been a super productive exam week.

Douchebaggery.

Stop making promises you can't keep.
I can't fucking wait anymore.
If you want to be friends then man up and have the decency to call me back like a friend would do.
Don't wait until she's not around because I'm not your bitch.
I don't wait around for you
and I don't cater to your fucked up schedule.

ALSO. IF YOU HAVE MONEY TO GO TO THE FUCKING BAR EVERY OTHER NIGHT THEN HOW DO YOU NOT HAVE MONEY TO PAY ME BACK YOU FUCKING SKEEZE.
Girl's getting a night out with my money. wtf.
...I really wish you read these posts..

I met up with the king
His body had begun to rot
And he said
"Don't think less of me
I'm still the same man I used to be"

1/3.

It hit me, and holy shit is it ever overwhelming.

Nestico

Your commitment and discipline
will definitely take you further
than derivatives.

Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head.

...so did sadness.

I think I've broke out into tears about 10 times today.
Exposed 2010, welcome to the world.

All of you are so lovely and mean a lot to me.
My experience at OLMC wouldn't have been the same without you.

Love to go around the class of 2010.

Numbers.

1 day of school left.
3 exams left.
12 days until commencement.
8 hours of work only this week.
25 hours was my original count.
65 days of summer ahead of us.
82 days until day one of university (approximation).
77 days until I move.
24 days until I get my braces off.
15 days of dance in July only.
2000+ yearbooks to distribute tomorrow.
It's 1:30am.
5 hours until I have to be up.

Within Reach...

1.
The grad mass today was quite remarkable.
I wasn't sure how I was going to feel, or what I was going to expect.
But I am definitely glad that I decided to go, and experience something I haven't done in a while.
...Church that is.
They say that keeping your faith is one of the hardest things to do in your post secondary career.
I say that it's pretty tough now.
I can't even stop swearing in church for goodness sake -_-
Today was a good day to think about how you've changed and your new passions and interests.
Serious HIPPO for days :')
Anyways, this mass definitely marked off a good start to these last few days of high school.
14 days til I gtfo.

2.
New school, new home, new environment, new possibilities.
Of all things I'm now closer.
Even more possibilities.
Can't you just wait?
It's so predictable but the thing is that you don't have patience.
You can't tie down til then.
You're so impractical and immature.
Jumping from track to track.
Why don't you take a breather, look ahead for once,
and see how close you are to grasping it.

Swatches.

I'm quite sure that design and material arts are my calling.
There's nothing that you can say that will make me reevaluate this.

Get me out of high school and into some OCADU lovin'

As we descend upon the last days...

-Calc "quest" Monday
-Yearbook prep Tuesday
-Yearbook distribution Wednesday morning
-Religion CA presentation Wednesday
-Accounting CA due Wednesday
-Religion Exam Thursday
-Calc Exam next Monday
-Accounting Exam next Wednesday
-Freedom...real soon.

9 Crimes.

I'm not okay with this, and yet I'm still going along with it.
I'm still playing the fool in the game we call....nevermind.

It's just one of those days...

Those sad, lonely days.

CAM.

Thanks for listening to me rant, bitch, complain.
It's good to know that I can do all that and still manage to make you laugh.
KINGSLEY!? BAHAHAHA.
I've never said bitch so much in my life.
"Bitch is gonna break his fall."
Anyways, this evening was a calmer way to end a stressful day.
With everything going on, it's hard to catch up.
I'm glad we did this, and I'm glad I was able to be completely open to you about everything.
LEGITIMATELY EVERYTHING.
-Graduating
-Driving
-Old "flames" LOL.
-Interests
-University
and then talking about how "Talk to Me" came out when we were in elementary school and how we had the slight obsession of "Final Fantasy" characters...
...like damn, this friendship has been going on for time.
I can't believe everything we've been through.
From fighting over how you didn't know who Beyonce was, to driving behind some sloth and then making an effort to cuss out the window only because we finally have a reason for road rage and can actually drive now...We really have made it quite the distance.

Think of life as if we're at the lake..
Even though there aren't any sharks, I'd still look after you as if there were any ;)

(L)(L)(L)

...and then my heart swelled,
and sank.

WHAT THE

FUCK.

Go for it.

Don't think. Just do.
You got this.

I don't feel like cleaning my room...so I'm just gonna complain to the internet about it.

Hey girl, listen.

I know that I can be rude, obnoxious, loud, extra, a huge exag., and a bitch (lol),
but even I know what going too far means.
It may be out of line, but you gotta keep your head up, set all things aside, and move on.
You got this.
You have a hold on your life and you're steering it in YOUR direction, and that's what's important.
I know I screw around a lot, say a lot of things I don't mean, and I may have been MIA on a few things,
but believe me when I tell you that you will be okay, and you will come out of this the strong one.
I've seen you struggle, and I've seen how you fight your battles,
and I can easily say that you'll find your way around and out of this mess sooner than you think.
There's not a lot of people like you out there,
so keep this attitude and persona.
I know you'll make it so far that this won't even be a blur.
It won't even be a memory.

Take care.
Love you always.
-Your main girl.

"What is this?! A centre for ants?!?!"

But no seriously, what is this?
What is even going on anymore?
Between friends, relationships, school, life?!
Everything is happening so fast I can't even grasp on to the fact that prom passed and it's never coming back.
Can you believe that?
Ever since you were a kid, you've been looking forward to the prom experience, and as it happened, you didn't even soak it up.
I really wish reality hit me harder.
It seems surreal that life really does go on passed high school.
It seems surreal that everything up until now isn't even life.
It's just an undercoating to what's about to occur
........and really really soon for that matter.

As for friendships, it's amazing how fast they build...and break.
It's incredible how hard it is to repair the damaged friendships and restore the old ones.
Sometimes they just don't spark up again.

I wonder how your mind is working.
Where your morals are...
...If you even think of me like you say you do.
If you fuck this up even more than it already is,
then you're cut even more than you already are.
You're at two, and in a second you can be down to one.
FIGURE IT OUT FOO.

Quicky: Thursday-Sunday.

Thursday:
-G2 Certified
-Braces off in one month
-Uninsured? IDGAFFFF. LOL.

Friday:
-PROM.
-Hair did/cute meet-up inside Starbucks :)
-Dutty Wine for me giiiirl.
-Food was crap.

Saturday:
Morning (aka 12AM)
-SHERIDAN!!!!!!
-Rm. 212
-Chugged a few
- "Guys it's good that I haven't started studying for my exams yet, because I would've forgotten it all by now"
-Ran around for a few hours
-Security said: "WHITE DRESS WE DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU IN THE HALLS"
-...So I changed into shorts.
-Passed out and missed the most huge event to ever occur in my highschool career.
-Okay, exag. But still YOU'VE BEEN TOUCHED BY AN ANGEL, GIRL!
-Oh Tahiti, you are so good to us :')
-Don't remember much else.

Afternoon (3-5)
-Went to my cousin's for his 2nd birthday
-He still doesn't love me
-He won't look me in the eye even when I'm carrying him

Evening (7 onward)
-I was doing nothing at home, so I went to Craig's to do more of nothing
-Why do nothing by yourself when you can do nothing with another person?
-FIND YOUR LOVE
-Fake-out: We wanted to make quesa. dilla. Quesadilla's but we were ambushed by a bus load of people
-Okay maybe just a van and car of people
-Cheap Sushi vs. Cheese Danish? Cheese Danish!

Sunday:
-Clean my room
-Dance practice


This was an amazing weekend and I'm sad to say that it's almost over :(

-1.

Thank you for making my year.
I love you guys <3

These girls, always.

Two pairs of eyelashes. Why?

Because I felt like feeling extra okay?!Happy Prom 2010!

LOL, IDGAFUUU-

Because

a) You're jokes.
b) I'm not scared of you.
c) PROM IS TODAY.

You are just too much.

Once there was a boy named Craig.
He was the Valedictorian.
Even though he was accepted, he still does homework til the mornin.
He thinks he's good at healthcare
But isn't looking for a job there
He's definitely a high acheiver,
Did I mention he's Valedictorian?
I couldn't believe it either.
He likes to say 'bitch' a lot
and when he acts like a diva, he forgets what he's taught.
I'm proud of everything he's accomplished,
and I hope that this friendship is never abolished.
Even though we're moving away,
We know friendship will stay.