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...So basically I'm working full time this winter break.
Am I crazy? Most definitely.
Money on my minddddddd.

Extra bright, I want ya'll to see this.

So, today is my birthday... *pause, grabs confetti from pocket and throws it in the air*
YAY. 18. Bittersweet.
PORN YOU WILL BE MINE TONIGHT.
...I'm kidding. Chill.
ANYWAYS, I really wanted to dedicate this post to my (best)friend Melanie Hong (http://www.melaniehong.blogspot.com/) because she was over-generous (like all the others who gave me a gift this year) and got me these GORGEOUS pieces to put all my jewelry in.
I. FUCKING. LOVE. THESE. TO. DEATH. JUST. SAYING.
If you know me at all you'd know that jewelry is a big deal to me and I've never been satisfied with any of the jewelry boxes I've ever had.
THESE HOWEVER, are PERFECT.
Contemporary, chic, perfect, GORGEOUS.
Also, the thought and love she put into this gift is just radiating off the porcelain.
Thank you Melanie, I love you tons and I hope you know that (L)

Last few minutes,

Dear childhood,
You were too good to me.
I can't believe everything I've accomplished up to this date.
Especially in this last year; it feels like it all went too fast.
More age, more responsibility.
With all this change you can't forget where you came from and who you are.
Maturity is what you make of it.

18 and at ease.

Nothing really...

My mind is a huge jumble right now.
I'm feeling too confident about my 2nd piece of my Assimilation series, and I'm currently stuck with the last piece.
I feel like my mind keeps wandering instead of focusing on this very important task at hand.
Even worse, my birthday so happens to fall in the middle of the busiest 2 weeks of my life (so far), and I have added another little shindig next Tuesday to accomodate a few of my new friends from school.
Unfortunately I cannot enjoy my debut into womanhood because OCAD and Aritzia are eating me alive and it's quite uncomfortable.
All I want to do is sit in my basement with some new and old friends watching classics from the 80's and 90's while eating pizza and drinking beer.
...yeah. Hard to imagine during a time like this.

Similarities.

While we were sitting in the woodshop, silent yet working hard, my friend broke the silence with one of the most important realizations of present life.
Out of no where he said,
"Honestly guys, I think I've found my place in this school.
Where would I be if I was anywhere else?"
Those are the truest words I've heard in a really long time.
I don't know if I could be working any harder for something I didn't enjoy.
I wouldn't succeed anywhere else and I definitely wouldn't belong.
I'm happy with my choices and the decisions I've made to get to this point.
Despite the challenges, I have never been more proud of myself.

You're not even 18.

NOSTALGIA.
It really hit me hard this weekend.
I thank my parents for giving me so much opportunity and freedom to live my childhood. Reminicsing on it now really hits me hard and I wish I took it all in sooner.
I know I don't seem like I appreciate this home I was raised in a lot of the time, but I do. I can easily say that this home sickness is getting worse.
This weekend I have also I have found true love in my friends. They have the potential to bring me up even when I am at the lowest of the lows. The ones that would travel across town to visit me. The ones who are always there to tag along to make me feel welcome again. On the rare occasions when I am able to come home, I try to see who I can, even if it is for a minute. I try to not make anyone go unnoticed. I appreciate the friendships I have and I thank those who make me feel loved.
Off to Toronto again. See you December 4th mdv.

nts.

Stop comparing yourself to others.
Their business isn't yours.